Well its been a while since I wrote anything, and the reason why is I’ve just been sooo busy – uni work, new boyfriend, job..life!
I dont mind being busy but its having a detrimental effect on my weight loss, I got weighed on Thursday night and had gained 2lbs. I dont mind this because I have hardly been at home and when I have been the desire to eat has not been there. I came home tonight to find that people had had takeaway and left me Chicken Balls and Egg Fried Rice. Honestly I would of rather that they chucked it because I sat and ate 4 Chicken Balls, and a bit of the rice. I was hungry but fruit would of done me.
So im kinda planning on taking one meal at a time, to get through the day so if i slip up its on the day wasted just the meal 🙂
Tonight was weigh in night, and I was really excited to stand on the scales and see what I had lost, having had a good week in general I was not expecting amazing results. Some times I feel that if you have really good week in every other aspect of your life, your eating/weight can suffer. But this was not the case tonight, I lost 1 and 1/2 lbs meaning I am currently 2lbs off losing a stone. Now, this is totally doable before xmas, if not a little bit more. I dont want to aim to high because I dont want to feel like I have ruined my Christmas if I have not achieved a stone loss.
I’ve also been making some huge decisions with regards to uni, I’m currently in my second year of my foundation degree and next year I have to decide if I continue with the uni I’m currently at or change. The uni I’m currently at is great at foundation level because my course is outsourced, but they would be teaching my BSc and the level of support is not there, also they don’t do my specific course, just a general one. So it would make more sense to travel further up the road and go to a uni that offers a course that is specific and hopefully can give me the support I require. So tomorrow I am going to be speaking to admissions teams to see if this is the case.
It’s been days since I have posted, but in terms of what has happened….LOADS!
But today I really want to talk about confidence – Body confidence, confidence in ourselves. I’ve never really had any body confidence, confidence in myself is even less existent, but we all have to get some confidence at some point, or we become doormats to people, things, life.
Weight can massively affect confidence, will you show part of your body? if you move in a certain way will people perceive you a certain way? how you dress…. the list goes on, yet should we really care? Personally my view on this is: As long as your happy thats the only thing that matters. But I also know that overcoming yourself is sometimes the biggest obstacle. “I am my own worst enemy” I have spent most of my life relating to this.
Confidence in yourself – can you do the job? be who you’re needed to be? Are you good enough? Only you can decided these things for yourself, but there are lots of things that you can do to improve your confidence.
What I have noticed is this, as I get older I no longer care as much..I am happier in myself with my body, my abilities, my priorities have shifted and I can live with my inadequacies. If other people cant, that is their loss not mine.