A Bag of Bird Seed

Have you ever thought about how much weight you have lost? Well the other day while I was sat on the floor sorting out the bird food – I’m now feeding everything not just me- I noticed that the bag of bird seed weighed 12.6KG.

I’ve lost 11.3KG, so I’ve nearly lost a bag of bird seed.

That kinda gave me a shock…that bag is pretty heavy and its rather large, was a great visualisation as to what I’ve accomplished. Only down side to this is that it made me realise how much more I have to go. I personally try not to think about the weight I have to loose as this not only depresses me but I have a slight “oh f*** i’m never going to do that” moment and eat the bread.

So here is my idea, find something that weighs how much you’ve lost and share it, you might be shocked.

LMC

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Jeans.

So following on from my last post, I should share that I am still walking around in size 24 jeans. They are massive and if it was not for the fact that I have hips there is not a cat in hell’s chance that I would be keeping them up.

Now is the time to be brave right? I should of just not bothered. I have in my wardrobe sizes 24 down to 18, and thought that given the smaller gym bottoms and swim suit (i mean that fits my whole body!!!) that I would try on a size 22 jeans.

So I took out a nice brand new pair of dark blue boot cut jeans (I buy jeans when they are in the sale, or I buy them and then dont wear them as I am only going to asda ect) and pulled them on…..

They where tight, at my ladybits and around the top of my hips. On the plus side they did give me a cracking backside. But in another twist, I tried on a size 22 skinny jeans and these fitted perfectly. How does that happen? both from same brand, same size just different cuts…

I still ended up going out in my size 24 jeans as these felt comfy, I am just not sure how long I can get away with wearing them for.

Sportswear

So as I sit here and eat my dib dab (4 1/2 syns) I’m a rather happy girl.

I got weighed this week and I gained, shock horror, but it was 1/2lb. I’m not going to lament this as I had three good meals out with the other half and family. Nothing beats family time and seeing my gran actually eat more than a tiny amount.

So why am I happy about my lack of weight loss? Because I got into a swimsuit and pair of gym bottoms two sizes smaller. And not only that but the gym bottoms are so far out of my normal comfort zone that I cant believe I had to confidence to buy them. Ive still yet to wear them out but hey one step at a time.

I love them, and they are really comfy. Honestly Marks and Spencer sports wear range is brilliant, they offer some sizes up to size 24 which for a high street store for gym wear is not really heard of.

So I am stupidly excited because I have epic new gym gear and my water class resumes on Tuesday, I was hoping for sooner, but the woman didn’t return my call but she did say that because there is only three weeks till the schools break up and we loose the use of the pool, that they would look at a personal trainer for the 6 weeks holiday. I cant believe this, as I go to the gym but I’m not overly confident so hopefully this will help and speed up my weight loss.

 

Fat Lass On a Bike

I was heckled!

I am actually really happy with this, its totally unacceptable that some one thinks they can do this to someone but it made the last mile back on my bike so much easier as I thought “UP YOURS!”

My other half has gone to Leeds for a exam tomorrow so I asked him to bring my bike down so that I could put it in the car and go for a ride on my own! With all the problems with my back, I thought it would be a good idea to ride the sea front, as it is relatively flat, which when compared to the ride to my grans house is like a dirt road.

So off I set, head phones in and I was away….the first mile and a half where tough I’m not going to lie, the wind in my face makes it difficult to breathe and I had to stop to take my inhaler. Once I had done this I continued a bit more and once I turned around and got the wind on my back it was so much easier, but on the way back I was heckled by a group of lads on bikes coming towards me, because of the headphones I didn’t exactly hear what they said but them laughing kinda gave me the impression of it. I could of just stopped and not continued to ride but No, I’m getting off my ass and doing something.

I might be bright red, a bit sweaty and look a mess but I don’t, I was having fun. I love cycling. I’m not particularly fast or have skill but i love it. I’m not stopping. I continued for the last mile happily on my bike looking over the sea front listening to my music. I’ll hopefully be there tomorrow too.

I cant wait to get weighed on Thursday, I dont care if I lose or gain because I’m having fun, eating well and moving my backside.

 

Water Mobility

Today was my first class of water mobility, due to the problems with my hand I did not think it was advisable to go to a gym based activity as I would not be able to hold/grip things. This was the activity that the GP referred me for.

So I turned up nice and early, good job I did as there was only one girl on the desk and the queue was huge. I was prepared with swimsuit under my clothes and the woman was lovely (always find this a bonus when I’m stood in a swim suit!) and the class was full of older women. Nothing wrong with that, but I was the only one under 30 and 40 and 50!

The women however are a great laugh and the class was really enjoyable. The exercise that she used where really good, targeting the core and working our bingo wings a bit. I did not even notice that a hour had passed I still thought we where  15 mins in!

They have offered to refer me to the Fitness Trainers who will go through nutrition at a more in-depth level and personalise it to me more than slimming world does. I said that I would give this ago as all information is welcome. I’ve picked up leaflets about joining the local health centre, as they offer a monthly payment for swimming and I can go as much as I like. I love swimming always have  just the feeling of water makes me happy

So I lost 2lbs this week at slimming world and when the nurse weighed me yesterday I’ve lost a pound since Thursday which I’m happy with considering I went away for the weekend.  So now just to look forward to Thursday’s weigh in!!!

My ass hurts

There is no other way to say it other than to blurt it out. My ass hurts.

Having bought a new lighter bike I was itching to get on it and go, but according to the other half, we have to break them in, check the handle bars are straight and add a whole host of other bits (lights!! Like I plan on biking in the dark!!!)

One thing no one mentioned about breaking in was my ass…..I did really well I got to my Grans house with minimal ease, I had to stop once to get my breath. We stayed for a bit while people admired my lovely bike, and he adjusted my handle bars ( this nearly caused a fight cos I had no idea what he wanted me to say other than its wonky?) and then we got back on our bikes to ride home. The plan had been to walk home but I was determined to make it back. I kinda did, I got 3/4 of the way home when I got  a shooting pain from my lower back/ass up I could hardly get off the bike and when I did it was the most unladylike like thing you have ever seen. So I then proceeded to walk home with a slight limp.

So my seat has been swapped for a gel cushioned one that was in the shed, but in all honesty I don’t think it will be big enough!

How ever non of this has put me off and I’m already planning the next ride…thinking Wednesday, oh and I’m signing up for a water motivation class, what ever that entails, there was a gym option but I dunno just feel it. I love cycling, I feel really free and love speed but a gym just seems boring to me.

 

LMC

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Mixed

I hate going to the Dr’s to discuss my weight,  it takes me weeks to build up the confidence just to go and speak to them. Previous experience has given me the expectation that they don’t care or see me being there as a bit of a joke.

 

So knowing that it was going to take me a while to build myself up to this, I booked an appointment 3 weeks ago, so that everyday I could talk myself into it. Even this morning I was going to cancel. I made sure when I booked the appointment it was with a female Dr that I felt comfortable with. I didn’t know what I wanted but help, not sure what the help was that I wanted though. The question didn’t help when she asked me what I wanted as I honestly didn’t know.

The appointment was thoroughly awful, she was asking me what exercise I did and told me that I need to do more (I already knew this), that in order to get any sort of help from them I need to loose at least 1 1/2 st, and that she would refer me to a exercise programme and just to be on the safe side check my bloods again for thyroid problems and diabetes. Oh and they will put me in their weight management clinic.

I’m not sure what I feel about all of this. As stated earlier I went in not knowing what I wanted, but 1 1/2st is a lot to loose, and I’m well aware of the amount of weight I have to loose. Now all I can think about is that number. This time though she seemed to take my concerns seriously, especially since I’ve gained 2 1/2st in 2 months and all this with out changing what I eat.

 

 

 

 

 

Haloween

The last time I went out at Haloween was probably about 6/7 years ago. Since my gran has been ill and I became her career my social life has took a bit of a dive bomb, I dont mind this as it has allowed me to persue other activitys but the thought of getting dressed up for Haloween and spending the night surrounded by drunks when you dont drink does not appeal to me….

This year though, we where invited to a haloween party, and for some reason I was really excited. So i decided to go as a zombie nurse.This zombie nurse to be precise I even had the wig! 

I hate white – I will wear a white vest top under something but thats it. So the fact that this was white, tight and I was wearing a blonde wig when I’m a brunette was pushing my limits. But I thought it would be a good out fit. I really went all out and from the front I looked ok. But there was a picture taken which shows me from the side and makes me seriously hate my self for allowing myself to get this big. I have a massive stomach role / over hang, my chest blends into my stomach and I have about 3 chins.   The last post I wrote how I wanted to lose weight well I’ve now frightened myself into it. That was possibly the scariest haloween I have had in a long time. I cant see another haloween this big. I also noticed that when it was posted to facebook everyone was tagged in the picture but me, and I’m eternally greatful for this.

7lbs

It has been yet another long while since I have posted. Not because I am not following slimming world, or not wanting to write, there has been so much I could have wrote about but life just repeatedly gets in the way.

So thought I would give you a bit of a update on my journey:

I am currently 1&1/2 stone lighter having got my award this week. I am really pleased with my self, for continuing my journey but I expected that it would be quicker. that I would be at least 3 stone lighter by now. The only person I can “blame” for my lack of weight loss is my self, but I’m not going to do that because we weeks where I have had a gain there have always been a reason for it. Not just because I sat and gorged my face. The thing is I am getting there, when I started this journey I was heavier, unhappier, and every lb off is a good thing, an amazing thing.

Me and my partner have been together a year, we celebrated it this weekend, we had a lovely Slimming world Chicken Tikka curry, and Steak and Jacket potatoes to celebrate. We did go out for food during the course of the weekend but all my choices where good choices and ate lots of fruit during the weekend, this is different to other weekend where I struggle when we are out and about to eat my superfree. I am happy, which means my weight loss is working well. I cant wait to see what the next year brings for us as a couple and I am really looking forward to Christmas this year, last year we didnt give each other gifts as we hadn’t been together very long, but this year we are going Christmas crazy.

I also bought myself a Christmas present, in the black Friday weekend sales (BTW those things are just stupid, people getting injured for a cheap telly, give ya head a shake!)  but I had been considering getting a new fitness tracker as the necklace to my shine keeps breaking, and pushing a wheel chair it doesn’t record my activity on my wrist. So a bit of research later and a chat with the nice lady in the Apple shop, I had purchased a JAWBONE UP24 from boots for £50, which is half price and I have to say that I am really impressed with it. Not sure about sleeping with it on, but then I cant sleep with a necklace on so its nothing really different. I will give you a update once I have worn it for a little bit. Its safe to say that I am going for my 2ST award before Christmas, I want that baby. Its 7lbs and i’ve got 3 weigh ins. So lets go!

LMC

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Checking In,

Sorry about the absence of late, I would like to say I have been busy but that’s not the case in the conventional sense of busy.   I’ve just been I dunno dithering. It took me a whole week to do the weekly clothes wash, that’s not me it’s usually done in a day. Same with the cleaning, I’m normally little miss house proud but lately I’d rather not be at home. There are reasons for this but at the moment I can’t face them.

Slimming world…well I’ve been trying to stick to the plan but to be honest I cant say that I’ve been 100% committed. I have lost 3lbs over the last 2 weeks, but I am not sure how? But have you guys seen the new magazine and the calendar that comes with it? I love slimming world calendars as they show lovely pictures of tempting food that is seasonal, they are recipes that you want to eat. I’ve made loads out of this years calendar let alone the magazines 🙂 and I am so excited  for next year to try the recipes in there. As for this months mag it is full of scrummy food that I cant wait to try. I cant say I have been totally adventurous in the kitchen the last couple of weeks, its kinda been the same food that I have cooked before.

I have gotten good and started to freeze leftover stew and soup so that on nights like tonight when I cant be bothered to cook, I can simply defrost a bag and have that for my tea. Tonight’s offering is Beef stew on a jacket potato – simple but full of free and super free foods so a good filling tea and no syns. They are also good when your busy because you dont have to worry about finding something to eat.

Oh I have found something cool to eat. Let me present the Walls Gingerbread Sandwich. I have worked these out to 8 1/2 sysn but they are rather big and they are lovely. I cant eat a lot of dairy so these for me are the right amount but they are not small and because they are so full of flavour you dont mind that they are not huge. The box cost me £2 for 4, and they where worth every penny.

I have also calculated out that I am currently 3lbs of my 1 & 1/2 stone award so I am trying, and I have my Christmas present to my self to consider, I’m 9lbs off it with 9 weigh ins left. So I need to give my head a wobble and get on track. Its now 11months to my graduation so unless I want that tent, I need to get a shift on.